what is love.....

Love.. Many many ppl ask me y do we fall in love... So much hurt, so much pain n so much heart breaking...

I used to have many of my friends coming to find me, saying "i love her so so much, y does she have to treat me like that" and some will come with tears and sobbing over the phone saying "i feel so so pain right now, he fall for another person n has lost that love for me". I have no problem in helping them. Many of the time i manage to comfort n sooth thier pain. I m no GOd, i cant say "don love" than its gone forever. I use to think love issue its easy to settle, but i was wrong....

Sec school was the start for me to experience what is love and hurt. in the first year, our relationship was very sweet, very memorable. It was something that money cant buy and we thought things will remain forever. Than when the 2nd year come, things startted to change. We started argue more n more often but we keep thinking things ll b fine in the end. On the 3rd year which is this year, things got very very rough and in the end i mention the word broke up.

THe word "broke up" was not an easy thing to say. In coll many think i m very fine with it seeing me smile n assuming i don care much where else she keep crying n m very heartbroken. I don wan show my solumn face to my friend cause what is the use? even if i show, means?? i still wan cont with her? To her, i m the one for her, but how can a relationship only depend on one side of the party? things isnt as easy as it seem....

for now, only a miracle can save this relationship..... ntg much to say, ntg much can b done....

Blogging is the only way.....

I use to diagree ppl blogging, thinking it as a watse of time. But currently i know, this is the only way for me to express my feeling. I cant find my parents neither can i find my leaders. I try to find God b4 but somehow my heart is not fully open to Him. What ever i wan express is just not right to let anyone to see. Thast y i really hope no one will see my post.

I m a simple person. Just wan to have a normal life like many many of my friends. Ever since from 1 i started knowing that God have give me a special talent. That is to b a councellor to my friends. Many many time i help ppl in thier love life, relationship and family issue but some how when it come to my matter i m just a total failure.

When ever my friends wan find someone to express thier feeling, i ll always put them first n lend my shoulder to them, but when i m down, sad n feel like crying, i will just scroll down my phone n in the end let my sorrow bury deeep down in my heart.

So finally here i m, blogging my way through... I cant write a diary as i scared my parents or friends ll see. NOw all i realy hope is this blogging mattered can b my storing bottle, keeping all my secrets n thoughts without anyone confronting me.